Last day of year 2012

To sum up the last few days of year 2012...

A year has passed yet again, and Melody has turned three years old now. It felt like just yesterday that I've celebrated her 2nd birthday. Such a big girl now.



One year ago, her Abby Cadabby themed 2nd birthday celebration.

Also, I finally did something that I have been contemplating for a very long time. It was not planned, initially only accompanied my brother for his first tattoo appointment. But just in that moment, a strong urge came by and I decided to get it done as well.



With the awesome tattoo artist, Feroze.

This month has been pretty much awful to me. December in year 2011 was pretty beautiful with a mix of bitter sweet. December in 2012 has pretty much bring out the worst of everything life could bring. I just wish for a better ear in the coming new year 2013.



You know my name, not my story. I will not allow myself to shed a tear on the last day of year 2012. I will be strong, I believe i can.

xoxo, Salina.

王心凌 - 不哭 完整版MV

起初 相信爱的路 终点是指向幸福 

才会一而再的选择让步 太固执而盲目 

忘了停下来 心疼自己的无助 

无辜 你拿手演出 终于我可以麻木 

从这里分割出两个国度 挥霍多少时间 

折磨多少痛苦 才累积出的领悟 

忍住不哭 我要忍住不哭 

望向天空不让眼泪流出 抬头看进云深处 

等待那日出 把故事结束 

把从前一笔 消除 

忍住不哭 我要忍住不哭 

不能认输因为我相信 彩虹总跟着薄雾 

会带来幸福 在下一个叉路 

陪我跳全新的舞

I Give Up.

With that inked, it serves as a reminder that all pain is bearable.
The only one I ought to love and care for all my life is Melody.
Whatever pain I felt, I should have let it all disappear in the process yesterday.
I need to start my life on the right track by the new year.

This is not what I intended, I always swore to you I'd never fall apart.

You always thought that I was stronger, I may have failed but I have loved you from the start.

I was stupid over you, what could I do?

Why.. I lay my heart down on the floor.

I showed you love, you wanted more.

So I gave it all away.

If you felt that you were hurt by me, think about the hurt I felt because of you too.

I guess this is the best decision you have made, maybe we will be better off without each other.

Becos I will not ruin your life and your relationship, and you will live happier.

As for me, I will learn to forget you and live a happy live without being affected by you anymore.

The best gift to end off this year 2012, was losing you as my brother & my best friend.

Thank you seriously.

Por Amor

A quien más me importa,

Pensé que teníamos todo, pero supongo que estaba equivocado.

Pensé que nuestra amistad era lo suficientemente fuerte, pero supongo que estaba equivocado.

Pensé que estaremos ahi para ellos siempre, pero supongo que estaba equivocado.

Pensé que compartimos un amor/sentimiento especial que nunca será reemplazado, pero supongo que estaba equivocado.

Hoy, me ha hecho comprender tanto, todo lo que no sabía.

Finalmente vi amor egoísta como podría ser, cuánto amor puede cambiar a una persona.

Amor ruinas personas, incluso la persona más cercana a usted en un momento en la vida.

Los seres humanos son egoístas por naturaleza, pero el amor nos hizo aún más egoísta de lo que estábamos.

Sé que estoy en falta, pero así es usted, porque usted no es justo.

Si crees que vale para perderlo todo ello / because of her...

A continuación, voy a dejar, voy a darle, voy a dejar de tratar de estar allí para usted ya.

Porque no estoy necesitaba, porque yo no soy la niña en su corazón, porque no soy digno de él.

Si usted siente que soy una amenaza a su vida amorosa y, a continuación, se saque fuera y la espalda de su vida.

Todos estos años, todos estos meses, no me arrepiento conocerte, nunca una vez.

Todo lo que quería era sólo estar allí para usted, una promesa de establecer para mí desde hace 5 años.

Una promesa que he guardado, siempre está allí para usted cuando me necesite.

¿Nunca había roto mi promesa excepto los tiempos que me dejaste o usted me empujó lejos.

Este tiempo es el mismo, te hiciste stand, que hizo su elección.

Usted claramente me mostró lo que quería, quería terminar, quería dejar.

Así que voy a ir, me iré lejos de TI, de tu vida, no molestarte más.

Pero sabes que si un día me necesita, aún estaré aquí para ti mi querida.

Me duele para saber que esta vez perdemos todo, nunca seremos lo mismo otra vez.

Lágrimas cayendo descontroladamente como estoy escribiendo en mis sentimientos en este pasaje a usted.

Porque no creo que te das cuenta de lo mucho que significas para mí todos estos mientras.

No sabes lo importante que eres y lo especial que eres para mí y en mi vida.

Solo espero, algún día, usted encontrará a una chica que le encanta tanto como lo hago.

Lo siento y te amo.

Sometimes..

Sometimes, I choose to bottle up my feelings. Because I know that even if my feelings are heard, it wouldn't change a thing anyway.

Sometimes, I just have to bear with it. Knowing that I dont like what I am seeing but I had to see the things I don't wish would happen with my own eyes.

Sometimes, we wish to just break down. But we could not afford to show people the weak side of us, so we had to put up a strong front and show that we are ok.

Sometimes, you wish to be cared for. But often the person you care the most for would be busy caring for another person not realizing you needed care as well.

Sometimes, you wish that someone could understand you. But often even the person closest to you could not feel you nor understand you without you saying a word.

Sometimes, I get so tired of explaining. I give up trying to say anything anymore because I realize no one could be bothered.

And sometimes, it's times like that I choose to turn to my personal space. To spill some thoughts off my mind to make myself feel a little better, but it doesn't help much still.

Hello Manna Story

I went to work this morning.

Impromptu decision to meet le brother for dinner at Plaza Singapura in the evening. We ate Korean food at Manna Story, I quite love the food there. Next we walked to Starbucks at Orchard Plaza for our usual weekly addiction and chilled there for hours while Melody slept.

Simple night, headed home rather early as my iPhone was dying on me.



New coke-alike drink.



My outfit of the day.



Looking über cool in Le Brother's shades.



Side dishes in a Korean Restaurent.



Spicy Korean seafood noodles.



Nicest Korean rice cakes I've ever eaten,



Naughty girl cannot sit still.



Melody & Le Brother (Part 1)



Melody & Le Brother (Part 2)



Melody & Le Brother (Part 3)



Melody & Le Brother (Part 4)



Iced green tea latte for le brother & cookie crumble frappe for me.



Smile...



This is what happens...



When one gets too bored...



Spamming self-shots...



Snap shot of Le Brother with his favorite, Iced Green Tea Latte.



A gift for my Daddy for Fathers' Day tomorrow.

xoxo, Salina.

In a Lost World.

11th June 2012, Monday.

Brought Melody to watch Madagascar tonight with WeeSing, Candy and WeiGuo at Ehub. Had dinner at Pasta Mania with WeeSing before the movie. WeeSing and WeiGuo came over to my place after the movie and we had McDonalds for supper.
















12th June 2012, Tuesday.

Unexpected text from someone on this night. Last minute, I decided to head out to Zouk's wine bar to meet WeeSing, Joey and Priscilla. I took train to Tiong Bahru and walked all the way to Zouk from there, a long walk indeed. We had supper at Boon Tong Kee Chicken Rice after.


































It's been exactly two months.

13th June 2012, Wednesday.

A night to remember. It all felt like a dream. A dream that keeps replaying in my mind. Unexpected. The last memory.







14th June 2012, Thursday.

Accompanied WeeSing to school as he was going to enrol for the same course as me too. He send me back to Seng Kang and accompanied me to pick Melody up. We had dinner at Yoshinoya at Compass Point.










It's been exactly nine weeks.

15th June 2012, Friday.

Went for a long walk/jog/walk tonight to clear my head.
















xoxo, Salina.

Batam Trip with Steph Sunshine!

21st April 2012, Saturday.

So Stephanie & I never slept, we left her house at about 6am and went to Harbour Front. Got our ferry tickets and had breakfast at McDonalds. We left for Batam at about 8.40am.

We shopped and ate at Nagoya Hill Mall. I bought some perfumes and tops for myself today. In the night, we swam and we had dinner in the Hotel's restaurant.

Stephanie helped me to dye my hair tonight. Totally shagged out to the maximum. Best thing is there is free wireless in the hotel.



Zombie-fied me having breakfast, not a wink of sleep.



Finally a short break over the weekends.



Goodbye Singapore.



No longer the girl I used to be.



On the ferry to our short gataway.



I see me in the mirror.



A shot before we start our day at Batam.



Lollipop moments.



Do I look happy to you.



Our super cheap, yummy, fulfilling lunch.



Reflections reflections.



Enjoying my root-bee float from A&W.



Back in the hotel after a day of shopping in Nagoya Hill.



I miss you like crazy.



Before going for a swim.



Feeling super hungry after a swim, waiting for the food to be served.



Having our complementary dinner at the hotel.

I cried on this date cos I missed you, you're supposed to be here with me.



22nd April 2012, Sunday.

We woke up early to check-out from the hotel and went to Nagoya Hill again since we had a few hours before the ferry timing. I bought more perfumes, a cute bathroom shoe for Melody and alot of snacks.

We had a meal at the jetty with the leftover money. Took the 5.40 ferry back to Singapore. WeiGuo and Candy came to wait for me so I went with them to Changi City Point and had dinner at The Soup Spoon with Kenny as well as LiMin.

It's back to reality. Things are still the same. Nothing will change.



You will never see the hurt behind these smiles.



Our last shot before we check-out from the hotel.



Last minute shopping for snacks to buy back to Singapore.



Having our last meal at Batam.



Our tickets & the last view of Batam from the jetty.



Us taking more pictures on our way back to Singapore.



Us playing around with Steph's sunglasses.



Snap shot by WeiGuo Part 1.



Snap shot by WeiGuo Part 2.



Dinner at The Soup Spoon with Candy, WeiGuo & Kenny.



I miss my baby girl so much.



Ending of the day with a picture of myself.



Snacks & perfumes & keychains (LiMin gave me, thanks) from Batam.

xoxo, Salina.